Here, a topic of today post of mine. Love, Love, Love. Its everywhere. I hate seeing it, I hate how I felt when I see it.
Its about love. Love has a deep precious meaning that is blind to me. Im blind in love. I never experience it. I see many lovey dovey lovebirds at school, wedding and also when I went to the mall. My parents were the number one in my list of jealousy.
What I was going to say is, Its not just about girlfriend or boyfriend, husband and wife. Its about love from a friend. A friend that we shared secret always. A friend with many hopes. A friend which we called them, bestfriend. I always think of myself " Am I your friend, or is she my friend? Or even are we really besfriend? ". I know you dont get it. Simple say, I think that I dont have one.
Its sad to say that. I dont have any friend in mylife. I dont have anyone. Everyone is selfish on their own. Its not like I am cursing my friends. It just sometimes were apart and never get the chance talking about each other problems like we used to. Its pretty quiet hard to say. Im trying to be honest right now. Honesty of friendship.
I've tried my best to make them happy. Whenever they're happy I felt anxious. Are they really do thankful of my doings? Are they really like what I do? I sigh alone. I felt something's not right from the bottom of my heart. When Im with them, Im always careful with what I do. That's why I dont talk much.
As usual, I always left behind. I sit at the back. They left me alone somewhere. Im always being the little one to them. They kick me out like I was a beggar or some kind of a bitch. Its really sad thinking of that. Before I step into school, I felt like dying. Im sure they hated me when I came to school. They used me when they have nobody to talk to. Thank ALOT.
I dont hate you guys. I dont called you as my secret enemies or else. Im just in hurt. I need love from a friend. Im craving for it. I already had enough from my parents. I feel like I dont have a friend. I always talks alone and do things by my own. Its hurts me alot and I seriously hate to say it.
"I am sorry for what I did. I tried my best to make you happy.I'm sad that you guys never make me happy. I wanted some love from you guys. Can I?"
